Exactly six months ago, I went back to work outside of the house. Most of the scrapbooking companies that I'd worked for over the years either no longer existed or had regrouped and they were no longer a good fit for me. And I needed that "something for me" part of life that comes with a job. I was tired of being in my house and I have the tendecy to become a hermit just a wee bit too easily. If we had a grocery delivery service in our area, I could easily stay home for days and days on end and not see anyone but my husband and kids. I love, love being alone. But it's not always what's best for me and I know that. Plus I talk my poor husband's ear off all evening when I've been home alone all day. And he kind of appreciates having some quiet when he gets home after arguing in court all day long. Can't imagine why. ;)
So back in October, I applied for the first "fun" job I could find. It happened to be at my local quilting store and I was hired right away. It seemed perfect for me. I was to work with the quilters, customers, and social media department. I could easily see it becoming a job that I could stay in for years. Designer Digitals - my online "home" for seven years changed their creative team requirements and I knew that I couldn't manage both jobs so I even left DD a few months ago. So I traded scrapbooking for playing with fabric all day long. It wasn't a bad trade at all.
And then Libby needed me more and more often. And things got more and more complicated. And I felt guilt every single day. Either Lib needed me and I let down my boss or my boss needed me and I let down Lib. And we all know what happens when it's your child versus anything else. Your child comes first. Period.
I was questioning why all of this happened when it did. I had just started working. I loved (most) of the job. And I had left Designer Digitals for it. And it looked like it wasn't going to work out.
But, as of this afternoon, it has. I went into work and had a long talk with my boss and we talked parent to parent, not boss to employee. She had been so understanding over the past few months and had already given me control of all the store's social media accounts even though I was barely showing up at work. And now, I am officially a work-at-home mom. She's allowed me to shed all of my duties except for social media and marketing campaigns and do it all from home.
I didn't truly realize how worried I had been about balancing it all until I didn't have to. So now, we move forward and look at the bright side. This is a fantastic job for me and, without all of these changed circumstances, I wouldn't have it. Things happen for a reason. :)
Thanks to everyone for your comments about yesterday's post. I know that we'll find some answers for Lib very, very soon.